really??

It has been raining for like 30 days and 30 nights I think Im gonna trade the mini van in for an ark!  the lingering trial of Caylee Anthony Ive had to stop watching it and I cant stop thinking about it. Anything that has to do with the abuse of a child in any way makes me want to vomit. I want more than anything to mother my children, so I just dont understand. There is so much going on right now. the Church is preaching about the end of times but I think that every generation believes they are on the brink of the Apocalypse.  I try to live each day as it comes I mean Ive never struggled with any type of addiction nor had someone really close to me die that left me in an ever lasting sorrow Ive never been homeless or jobless or hungry so I dont know real sorrow so please forgive me for saying Im living day by day but I am. maybe its the weather maybe its PMS but Im just in a funk  lately and I want to stay home with my kids it would make life for me so much easier, now yea its selfish to want my husband to carry the whole financial burden all on his own but Im feeling the need to mother the kids Hope needs me more than ever she is 16 and spends a lot of time at home alone until we get home from work. The little kids are gonna wanna start getting into extra curricular activities that my current job will not allow me to take them to and from or attend the activities.  There are so many things Id rather be doing and I know I could do stuff to make a little money and still be with my family. I dont know just a thought. It is time for a new chapter in my life and Im going to make it a good one. Im the author Im the illustrator and nothing is holding me back except me.

Im done
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Im meeeelllting!!!!

I feel stifled bored and Im loosing myself. Im starving to be creative !  We bought this fabulous new home that is a little on the fancy side when Im ALOT on the artsy side so Im going to paint a mural in Morgans room,   birds and bird cages.  A  mural in the living room maybe but it is just not enough !

Im so bored at work and it exhausts the color right outta me, I spend the whole day being "nice" to people I dont know and then by the time I get home my nice-ness reservoir is empty and Im cranky ! There has to be a better way !
I want to spend every minute with my kids while they still like me. I want to  paint and craft and make my own wine and enjoy the company of  my other birds, you know birds of a feather flock together. I would love to have some place to hang my art and photography and enjoy my kids and maybe a cup of coffee or a glass of wine. I need a way to make money doing the things I love !  Tom and I are financially doing very well but my job supplies the benefits the medical and that sort of thing,  so I will need to make sure that we are not left without insurance. I know there are stay at home moms but I want more than that!  I dont want to wear sweat pants and have ugly hair,  I just want to do what I love and make money doing it instead of looking back in 20 years saying what happened?  where did my life go? and blame corporate America for stifling  me and sucking the color out of my life !   Im going to get with some other "rock star moms" and do some brain storming wish me luck and send ideas my way.  maybe Ill look into opening Rock Star moms Cafe !  art, photography,  crafts, play area, coffee, wine, wifi and great company !   ahhh what a dream !

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what a morning

Had to be to work at 8:30 so I hit the snooze button a few times went downstairs and made a breackfast sanwich to go and some coffee. I got dressed and got ready to go. Then I went into Morgans room and she asked where we were going?, Granma and Granpas house, she got deeper under the covers and said I wanna wear my jammies then I had a deja-vuew when the same thing happend in Tommys room. I picked out the kids clothes got them in their bag got them downstairs and Tommy knocked over my to go cup of coffee so I ran backupstairs to get a towel to clean that up, then got Morgan in her car seat and put tommy in his card seat but my husband had put the straps on it wrong after we washed it so they came  un-done (yea I know safe right?)  any way so I told the kids to please trade seats and while I was buckling in Morgan she starts pulling on the strap the opposite direction  Im pulling and I slip in my heels on the wet concrete and practically bash my face on the carpet floor of the van yea rug burn is a good look for me. I then went and buckled Tommy in the same way with the car seat belt instead of the bult in harness and I asked him to just leave it alone. So we get outta town and CRAP I forgot to get the gas card and the light is on and has been on since yesterday. So I flip a u-e and go back home and before the kids start to ask I tell them we have to go home and get the gas card and Morgan starts saying " well isnt that just greeeat" so I get the gas card and were off again and within about ten minutes I hear a click and a grunt and I look back and the boy is no longer buckled in!!!  So I pull off to the side of the road and buckle him in and tell the kids to please give me a break today Its not even 8:00AM  and Im spent. so I get gas get the kids to the granparents and then I actually have to go to work!!! OMG really? after the morning I had I should get to go to the spa or something !
I guess im done
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Vaca two

Two adults a teenage  girl,  two toddlers in a mini van and 2029 Miles no problem for Rock star mom! cause I made  the Hubster do  most of the driving. And thank goodness for that cause Im so blind at night Im dangerous!  So we left Friday the 25th at about 8 pm for Tempe AZ to stay with my sister and see my family and friends. We drove the van with all three kids. The The kids were good as can be they had movies and toys and when we drive at night they pretty much sleep.  So my son had a little diareah and kept sharding in his underwear's so I finally put a pullup on him and told  him to try not to fart. Then in the middle of no where at 3:46 in the morning,  I see this flash of light that about blinded me and I knew what it was, Freakin states that have money and they have those photo radar.  I was like CRAP and that is gonna be just a freakin fabulous picture !! Flint cannot even afford cops let alone photo radar. Sometimes living in a poor city is a good thing. stupid freakin photo radar. So I told Tom what happened and that it would find me and be waiting at the house when we get home. So Any way we got to my sisters early on Sunday morning and we all went back to bed my sister had a most beautiful guest room decorated for us. then sunday we just hid out cause no one was expecting us till Monday. SO on Monday we went to the phoenix Zoo with my sister and her fam she has three kids too. Tuesday we left the kids with my mom and went to the rim of the mountains. Tom loved it he is kinda a granola nature guy. I dont like out side I dont like weather, bugs, dirt, plants, pickers, snakes or anything else that lives in the wilderness. Then dinner with my BFF V she brought her kids. Now keep in mind Ive been gone six years so her beautiful daughter Alicia remembered me But Sy was a toddler when I left so I said I know you dont remember me but I'm gonna kiss you anyway.. he wiped it off hahahah. Wednesday had a heart to heart with the Creator of me the mom and then we went down to Mill in Tempe and hung out. Thursday was the Big stupid hole in the earth Oh I mean the grand Canyon. Now please reference again the above statement about how I love the out doors. I could have stopped for a moment looked  and said oh that is beautiful but the outdoorsy husband made a day of it and we took a million pictures he pulled me a couple times to the edge for some pictures and  I was freaked out and couple choice words I'm not proud of spewed from my lips as he slapped my butt as I was walking in from the death leap ledge ! and that is why I look terrified in the pictures. The kids were exhausted but I did get some nice pictures of them  the land scape along the pat is really beautiful Friday was dinner with my AZ besties it was so great to see every one. Holly and Andy have two great kids ! Tony is a goof as always, V well I have such deep love for,  and she walks up looking all HOT and skinny wearing the most awesome jeans I have ever seen and I said" ahh I want your jeans" and she loves me so much she said ok you can have them !!!!Jim was just the same as always and I love everything about him. Even Daren came out ! His new bike is BA! Saterday was the BBQ at V's house that was awesome my girl Teasha came with her brand new baby Zoe, she is one of the most beautiful babies I have EVER seen at only ten days old. Sunday we hit a really great local church then our customary Sunday nap then dinner out with the  fam. Monday we met lovely Louisa at a park in phoenix and I got to hold her new baby ooh what a chubby beautiful little girl. I found it hard to leave Louisa that day I miss you so very much. Then we went to china town in Phoenix for some great photo ops.Tuesday was back in the Van and head to Vegas baby!! We stopped and took a tour of the Hoover dam and then we got to vegas kinda late so we layed the babies down and Tom and I went out on the town!  Wednesday Tom had his convention and the kids and I stayed in the hotel and they played in the carnival and rode the rides and played carnival games. Then when Tom was done we went to dinner and took the kids to see some of the hotels and watched the Treasure Island pirate performance. Then thursday I let Hope lead the day since it was her sweet 16. then later we met up with Tom and did a few more things and headed to the van to get  back in the van for the long haul home. We stopped in Iowa to see Faith and Cassie Joe and then we got back to our beautiful home at 11:00 on sat morning  and I crashed in the big pappa chair for hours!   But I did like that spring came back to Michigan with us. and that is the fam
Im done TTFN

RUDE

The pastor preached on rudeness on Sunday and Ive been chewing on it ever since.

 Society as a whole has really been letting this one slide, there is rudeness every where and when it is portrayed in comedy's we laugh and find it amusing.  I am one to speak my mind but it is from my heart NEVER from a place of negativity or to hurts someone feelings. 
People are rude and mean and forget what a sword the tongue can be. They say things that criticize another and make sure there are witness's to make it worse. Rudeness in words is even worse over the phone, people think that because they cannot see the person on the other end they have no feelings or that it's their "job" think about how you talk to the rep at the cable company when your bill is messed up AGAIN. I have seen people treat servers and wait staff like they are trash.
I see this in children who have no manners due to their lack of parenting if you bump someone say your sorry, don't talk with disrespect to an adult. I know this is again due to lack of parenting for the most part because the parents themselves are rude and don't teach the children  in the proper manner to behave.
This is not just in words but in actions;  for instance if you say your going to do something do it! What happend to a man is only as good as his word?  If we have plans don't bail 15 minutes before our plans are scheduled; and please people,  RSVP for things!  How hard is This? it is just common courtesy and don't call me when you on your way and ask if you can bring your niece and nephew too? NO that's RUDE!!!!
Now I admit that my tolerance is growing weak as I get older so I avoid places like walmart where I want to smack all the ignorant people with their screaming children. I go to Target and pay a little extra that is the price I pay ..pun intended ...to get a little better shopping clientele.
  Teenagers... I have always bragged about Hope not being as sassy as the teenagers of my Friends but lately her lack of disrespect toward Tom is out of control. I know when she starts to get mouthy with me I look and her and say " remember who you are talking too" and she gets the message quickly. So I will have to take some measures to re-train Hope so she has the same level of respect for him that I demand she have for me. This again all stems from her being rude the topic at hand.  There have been times that I have been on the phone with people and they have to stop the conversation 3 dozen times to correct their children who are old enough to know better. When Hope was small and she would talk to me while I was on the phone I would simply hold up my index finger saying one moment and she would wait, and if she asked me for something while Im on the phone the answer will be NO flat out. Ok I digress lets get back to society in general where is modern society headed ? no rules no consequences for saying what ever you want and behaving how ever you want? cutting lines, cutting people off in traffic, not saying excuse me, there seems to be a rules do not apply to me or even sense of entitlement on their part.

The world is passing through troublous times. The young people of
today think of nothing but themselves. They have no reverence for
parents or old age. They are impatient of all restraint. They talk as
if they knew everything, and what passes for wisdom with us is
foolishness with them. As for the girls, they are forward, immodest
and unladylike in speech, behavior and dress."
- Peter the Hermit, A.D. 1274


I think as long as there are the people that still notice the rudeness and call people out on it there is still hope. So don't be silent and don't be tolerant ! If you see or hear someone being rude stand up and call them out on it!!! This behavior is unacceptable and not going to be tolerated!

zero waste ok less waste.

so I watched a video today about a family that has only accumulated a hand full of garbage in four months ! these are items that cannot be recycled reused or put in the compost that is AMAZING to me now those of you who know me know I have switched to all non toxic chemicals in my home and I push my shaklee to my friends like its crack. Im not under the delusion that my family of five will be a zero waste family but it sure got me thinking about all the stuff we throw away and all the stuff that will NEVER decompose and actually poisons the earth like Styrofoam there is a container in my trash under my desk right now. Im going to talk with my family about making a conscious effort to reuse recycle and compost what ever we can. there is no curb side recycling where I live so we have been separating every thing and taking it to my in laws for their road side service. We also burn all out cardboard and papers. My father is law composts so Im gonna get schooled on that so we can do it at home. Yes I realize there will be some work involved but I know we send ALOT of stuff to the road and then we dont ever think about it again but I need to start that is not the end of it it goes to land fills and then OMG I dont even know what happens from there.
I know I cannot save the planet all by myself but I have the power to choose the better way for my life and my family and my home and my small area of the work place.  Sooo Ill keep you informed on my less waste life style and please feel free to hit me up with any tips you use.
that it for now
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HOPE

Hope is fantastic Hope is sarcastic Hope is my baby yet turning into a young lady. . Hope is Funny and witty, Hope loves her some drama and pity. Hope is pretty and fun and my first one. She is my friend and my inspiration when I felt at Witt's end. Hope was raised with me during hard times Hope does what she is asked and never whines. Hope I cannot believe you are almost 16 I remember all the wonderful moments and even the ones that are not so wonderful but know how much I love you ALWAYS.