really??

It has been raining for like 30 days and 30 nights I think Im gonna trade the mini van in for an ark!  the lingering trial of Caylee Anthony Ive had to stop watching it and I cant stop thinking about it. Anything that has to do with the abuse of a child in any way makes me want to vomit. I want more than anything to mother my children, so I just dont understand. There is so much going on right now. the Church is preaching about the end of times but I think that every generation believes they are on the brink of the Apocalypse.  I try to live each day as it comes I mean Ive never struggled with any type of addiction nor had someone really close to me die that left me in an ever lasting sorrow Ive never been homeless or jobless or hungry so I dont know real sorrow so please forgive me for saying Im living day by day but I am. maybe its the weather maybe its PMS but Im just in a funk  lately and I want to stay home with my kids it would make life for me so much easier, now yea its selfish to want my husband to carry the whole financial burden all on his own but Im feeling the need to mother the kids Hope needs me more than ever she is 16 and spends a lot of time at home alone until we get home from work. The little kids are gonna wanna start getting into extra curricular activities that my current job will not allow me to take them to and from or attend the activities.  There are so many things Id rather be doing and I know I could do stuff to make a little money and still be with my family. I dont know just a thought. It is time for a new chapter in my life and Im going to make it a good one. Im the author Im the illustrator and nothing is holding me back except me.

Im done
TTFN