a new year with more resolutions Im never gonna keep

Happy New year to my exhausted fans.

Its that time of the year again to start lying to yourselves and to others on all the great things your giving up , loosing, doing, and not doing cause its a new year and a new start. YEA RIGHT you know that that is crap but heres mine ....

Ive spent the last couple weeks contemplating a running career no I dont mean to run from my  career I just mean to take up running as a form of exercise. Now let me preface this by saying Im not the best at following through with oooh I dont know ..ANYTHING.  But here is my thought. I want some alone time and if I call it exercise I might actually get it.  Hey maybe Ill even get a nice tone fanny as well we will see. I went last night and got fitted for some shoes and this gentleman was very tolerant of me when he had me run on a tread mill while he video taped I said OMG are you really gonna make me watch that ? It was horrifying !!!! but he pointed out what I was doing incorrectly which was every thing but at least I know how to start. So Ill let you know if the shoes get more than like 5 miles on them before my ADD butt moves on to something else. Good luck with your new years resolutions. Hit me up with you wanna share them with me. so I can say I can remind  in March when you  have forgotten what  they were.

Im done
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Rocks star moms menopause

let me start with What the heck menopause REALLY  !!! Im  38 there should  not  be a  glimmer of freakin' menopause !!!
Im blaming my mothers bad genes. Yes that's right mom its all your fault. Ive researched the family and Im not the only YOUNG person this is happening too in fact these un-sensitive Dr's call it Perry menopause like now I should feel better  cause you give it some stupid name well this is BS!  All of a sudden Im minding my own business and I get so hot I want to take my clothes off and it happens so quickly  that I cant get naked fast enough so I go outside or stick my head in the freezer, and you know Im griping the whole time and push people out of my way to get to the freezer! Not to mention my poor husband thinks Im crazy cause for the many years we have been married Im always complaining because Im cold.
Now lets talk about the mood swings OMG any one who knows me knows Im a sensitive person and I dont have that valve that most people have that stop's the mean things from your head from coming out of your mouth so... Im meaner than ever when the swings hit,  or I just want to cry and I hate that cause I dont get to yell at anyone but if any one even looks at me the wrong way I start to cry THAT is just STUPID! and dont ask my why Im crying cause then you get the other mood swing and get your head bit off.
Ok lets move on to the fat assedness of this problem " yes that is a word " I went on the HCG diet like two years ago and got down to almost my goal weight and kept it off and now within the last 6 months Im just getting fat around the middle this again is BS Im not a big girl so every pound looks like 3!  Its like my metabolism has turned on me and decided we are no longer friends ! Well she is a  big B and Im going to have to tame her and her bad attitude.   I threatened to go on the HCG again but my husband is very opposed to that,  apparently me only eating 500 calories a day makes me cranky-er ..what ever .
Now  lets discuss  the newest symptom of this perry not my friend menopause,  the anxiety attacks.  I thought I was just loosing my mind until this morning when I was reading some crap that the anxiety attacks are also due to this "change" as it was called,  well that is just great so lets go over this again .....I get hot flashes that must resemble the death inducing heat of the Sahara dessert, mood swings that make the bi polar seem normal and weight gain that makes the cranky in me crankier the skinnys unbearable and the cheesy butt look like a deluxe pizza and the anxiety attacks that make me think the world around me is coming to a panicky, sweaty chaotic end.
 Oh God bless any one who has to be around me for the next oh I dont know how many years. Im scared to read any more about this horrible "change" cause I might turn into a hypochondriac and induce more symptoms! Oh and the biggest suckety part of this  the thought of not being capable of having more children even though I dont want to have more,  it still throws  me into a crazy sweaty thought that includes me stealing little children from the ghetto moms at walmart in Burton that dont want their kids anyway.
Be scared women be very scared  cuz this "change" is coming for you too!
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CAUTION Im feeling very passionate about this so it may be offensive

This is what is being plastered all over facebook today
 small boy writes a letter to God. "Dear God, why do you let bad things happen in our schools?"
God replied, "Dear Son, I am not allowed in your schools."
I challenge you to re-post this.

so people are discussing how god is not in the schools any more and then saying oh that is why our children have no morals and no respect well here is my thought I went to a catholic school and didnt learn much about religion just about how mean kids can be and then I went to public school and the kids were just as mean there. The reason your kids have no morals and no respect is due to the fact that YOU the parent are depending on the school to do that for you, well in case you were wondering that's  YOUR job not the schools and if you want to raise your child with religion well guess what? that again is on YOU not the school but I also believe that God is carried in your heart not in some pledge or prayer you say at school. Now If you dont agree with public school well guess what you have options,  send your child to a "religious" school of your choice but you still must not expect the school to teach them the ways of said religion that again is on you the parent.
You have to RAISE your kids! that is the problem not the schools,  it is not the schools fault your child is disrespectful it is yours it is not the schools fault your child has no morals that is your fault,  maybe you should stop being on face book and watching the real housewives of where ever and spend time with your kids taking them to church is a great start but dont blame the schools for your lack of parenting, the schools have enough problems like not paying their teachers what they deserve and making sure there is enough funding to get books and supplies and having children that WANT to learn and are not being shuffled thru the system and pushing them to the next grade cause they would not dare hold them back like they should. God is in control of every thing anyway you just have to have faith in him and his ways. but YOU have to be the parent,  love your children raise them up with faith and love as well as discipline and affirmation speak words of life  over your little people and stop looking for someone else to blame.


Im Done

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Ive gotta a cream for that.

all these ailments are starting to make me feel old.  Here is what I say ...you gotta an itch I gotta cream for that your a B*&% well I gotta pill for that you got wrinkles well I gotta serum that will burn the wrinkles right off your face you got a problem there is a fixer a cream a pill a powder  an elixir not that any of these things really work they are a temporary distraction from what the problem is you are old you get wrinkles that is just life you got kids ?are you a wife? well your gonna be cranky in fact your not a wife and you dont have kids ? well guess what your still gonna be cranky. Life has struggles life can be hard but you know what maybe you need to put on your big girl panties and deal with it! Im not talking about a little PMS im talking about the all the cranky time funk stuck in the mud griping grippers. OMG I just had an epiphany Im one of these people !! I got pills for the funks and cream for the cellulite chunks, elixirs and fixers and I still am crabby!  so rock on with your fallin apart cranky itchy hormone-y crows feet-y, double chin-y mommed til your ears ache selves !  If you readin Rock star Moms blog you rock in my book. but you might wanna seek some therapy hahahah
Im Done
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what about this whole marriage thing anyway?

Ive been married three years and my hubby is a good provider and great dad and I think he is really hot!
 Ive been reading about all the infidelity that goes on and the fact the  new 20 somethings that are coming up thinking  that marriage is becoming obsolete.
In fact the pew research center found that 40% of these 20 somethings  thinking marriage is becoming obsolete say that they think being a good parent is way more important then  having a good marriage.
  There is so much of the living together having babies together that they don't see the point because every one is so independent  and they don't want to depend on any one. Ive been there I get it,  in fact Ive done it !  But I also believe that parenting should be done as a couple and we have gotten away from this in the last generation,  they believe that Divorce is the cure for melancholy. My generation the 30 somethings are perhaps in between the old romantic ideals and the new post romantic expectation. most of our parents are divorced because after all the hippy love and happiness wore off and the smoke cleared  and they hit their  40's and  they realized  they were in a marriage with some kids in middle income America and freaked out.
 I think my  generation has discovered anti depressants and rely on pills for their happiness,   every one is bi-polar and depressed and bla bla bla. They  think  they remember when life was  all rainbows and jelly beans and it never  really was in the first place,  you just plant false memories in your mind and sugar coat them with fluffy pink unicorns,  well  put on your big girl pants and make your marriage what is it supposed to be a partnership!   You cannot rely on you spouse to make you happy.

However you should be generally happy in your marriage, I mean there will be times when the way he drools in his sleep just repulses you or the smell of his feet makes you want to throw up in your mouth , but all in all you must have liked that person in the beginning at least enough to marry and have babies with them right?
Your maybe just bored and semi happy well boredom is basically an attach on a relationships immunity system,   however  it is not a reason to be unfaithful . Even so people can still end up feeling only semi unhappy there is still a part of your soul that isn't being nourished  in the marriage and the men feel trapped and the woman feels lonely . Maybe your expectations of marriage are too high ? It is not about a prince coming in and saving you from all your woes it is about a union of you and your spouse living your life together the good the bad and the ugly. and for those who think that being a good parent is better than  being a good spouse well that is all great until your kids are grown and gone then what? Your old and incontinent and so is your spouse.  You all better have something to talk about and a spark of love left in there cause its just you and wrinkle's over there looking for his teeth!

ok Im done
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really??

It has been raining for like 30 days and 30 nights I think Im gonna trade the mini van in for an ark!  the lingering trial of Caylee Anthony Ive had to stop watching it and I cant stop thinking about it. Anything that has to do with the abuse of a child in any way makes me want to vomit. I want more than anything to mother my children, so I just dont understand. There is so much going on right now. the Church is preaching about the end of times but I think that every generation believes they are on the brink of the Apocalypse.  I try to live each day as it comes I mean Ive never struggled with any type of addiction nor had someone really close to me die that left me in an ever lasting sorrow Ive never been homeless or jobless or hungry so I dont know real sorrow so please forgive me for saying Im living day by day but I am. maybe its the weather maybe its PMS but Im just in a funk  lately and I want to stay home with my kids it would make life for me so much easier, now yea its selfish to want my husband to carry the whole financial burden all on his own but Im feeling the need to mother the kids Hope needs me more than ever she is 16 and spends a lot of time at home alone until we get home from work. The little kids are gonna wanna start getting into extra curricular activities that my current job will not allow me to take them to and from or attend the activities.  There are so many things Id rather be doing and I know I could do stuff to make a little money and still be with my family. I dont know just a thought. It is time for a new chapter in my life and Im going to make it a good one. Im the author Im the illustrator and nothing is holding me back except me.

Im done
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Im meeeelllting!!!!

I feel stifled bored and Im loosing myself. Im starving to be creative !  We bought this fabulous new home that is a little on the fancy side when Im ALOT on the artsy side so Im going to paint a mural in Morgans room,   birds and bird cages.  A  mural in the living room maybe but it is just not enough !

Im so bored at work and it exhausts the color right outta me, I spend the whole day being "nice" to people I dont know and then by the time I get home my nice-ness reservoir is empty and Im cranky ! There has to be a better way !
I want to spend every minute with my kids while they still like me. I want to  paint and craft and make my own wine and enjoy the company of  my other birds, you know birds of a feather flock together. I would love to have some place to hang my art and photography and enjoy my kids and maybe a cup of coffee or a glass of wine. I need a way to make money doing the things I love !  Tom and I are financially doing very well but my job supplies the benefits the medical and that sort of thing,  so I will need to make sure that we are not left without insurance. I know there are stay at home moms but I want more than that!  I dont want to wear sweat pants and have ugly hair,  I just want to do what I love and make money doing it instead of looking back in 20 years saying what happened?  where did my life go? and blame corporate America for stifling  me and sucking the color out of my life !   Im going to get with some other "rock star moms" and do some brain storming wish me luck and send ideas my way.  maybe Ill look into opening Rock Star moms Cafe !  art, photography,  crafts, play area, coffee, wine, wifi and great company !   ahhh what a dream !

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